in a funk.

"Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."

                                                - John 15:4-5

 

Abide involves rest. It involves dwelling and staying. It includes being with Jesus - not so much doing. Doing flows out of being. It comes after we fully rest in Jesus - after we know who we are in Him, and who He is. Our identity and value is not found in the things we do, but our identity and value is found in who Jesus says we are. He calls us His, loved, cherished, redeemed, set apart, His inheritance, His children. God is after our hearts and our relationship with Him.

Lately I've been in this weird funk. Honestly, I've been really bad with my quiet time and my prayer life is really not there. And it sucks. I just feel out of it and really blaaahhh. I haven't been trying to seek the Lord and my bible and journal have been sitting on my desk collecting dust. I'm in this really exciting but weird season in my life and I'm not sure how I really feel about it. I feel like this season is never going to end and honestly I have been trying to "end" it myself which only makes things harder. I have not been abiding in the Lord and I know that this season is not ever going to end if I don't fully submit and rest in Him. I don't know where this season will lead me - or how long it may take, but I refuse to be so focused on the next season that I miss out on this one.

XOXO
Jessica Marie